Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Mac 1048

So I'm back a OBU and I am currently sitting in my apartment enjoying the wonderful wireless internet that the school has graciously provided. I'm also listening to this new Sherwood EP which just makes me very very happy. Great way to start the morning. You should try it sometime.

I am thrilled to be back at school! Finally seeing everyone after a summer on the West Coast has been nice. I forgot how much I loved all of them. Everything has been taken care of financially and such which is a huge blessing. I always get very stressed about that at the start of a new semester. I'm not entirely sure why. And get to keep my job! Which is also not a bad thing. I'm gonna need moneys in order to survive this semester. That will be the one thing that will take some getting used to. Buying my own food and being in charge feeding myself. I will miss the ARA for that much. But it'll be good too. I feel more independent living in an apartment. It just puts me one step closer to being on my own for good. Which is scary and exciting at the same time.

Today's my last day of freedom. I will do the best that I can to make the most of it.

Peace to all of you

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Heaven Songs

I am in exile, a sojourner

A citizen of some other place

All I've seen is just a glimmer in a shadowy mirror

But I know, one day we'll see face to face



I am a nomad, a wanderer

I have nowhere to lay my head down

There's no point in putting roots too deep when I'm moving on

Not settling for this unsettling town



My heart is filled with songs of forever

The city that endures when all is made new

I know I don't belong here, I'll never

Call this place my home, I'm just passing through



I am a pilgrim, a voyager

I wont rest until my lips touch the shore

Of the land that I've been longing for as long as I've lived

Where there'll be no pain or tears anymore



My heart is filled with songs of forever

The city that endures when all is made new

I know I don't belong here, I'll never

Call this place my home, I'm just passing through



- In Exile by Thrice

More Dustin Kensrue lyrics. The man knows how to write a good song. I love that this song is about heaven, and how earth is not our home. We're just travelers passing through. This song is filled with hope and longing. I love it. Heaven is only years away. I yearn for heaven the same way that the song does

Go to their Myspace (www.myspace.com/thrice) and listen to this song. It's wonderful

Monday, August 17, 2009

I'll Go Crawling Back to the City I Love

Well it's taken me a week of feeling depressed and discontent to finally start enjoying being home. I'm ashamed of myself for taking this long, but when you really love something it's hard to let it go. My love right now is camp. And right now they're just getting started on the first day of their last week. It's hard not to not want to be there.

But luckily I went to church yesterday. And while the music was great and the sermon was decent, that wasn't what made me happy. I got to see old friends. Friends I hadn't seen all summer. Friends I was losing touch with. That made me so happy...just seeing them. It was nice catching up and making plans for this week to hang out. At least it'll give me something to do. If I can find a good distraction then my mind won't be focused on camp 24/7 like it has been. Which is probably a good thing. I mean don't get me wrong. I love camp, but I need to focus again on things I have to get done here. I'm headed back to school in five days. I need to get prepared for that. And there's been something of a huge blow to my family that no one saw coming, and has been hard to deal with. And that needs my attention as well.

So, I'm learning to be content with where I am. I can't be at camp all year long (although I'd like to be). I need to finish my degree and then maybe I can have some fun in the Portland area. That's my plan anyway. But for now I'm in Borger. And I will enjoy it! Haha

P.S. Good Old War? They should be your new favorite band

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Settling In Is Such An Uncomfortable Feeling

So I've been home now for five days.

And I'm missing camp a lot. Cheery keeps posting pictures of what everyone is doing and it only makes me miss it more. I desperately want to be back there. I miss the people, the kids, the energy, the atmosphere, the worship, the...everything. I miss my bros as well. Tonka, Scooby, and Spork especially. There are some ladies that I wouldn't mind seeing as well. Haha!

I think the thing that makes it the most difficult is that I'm doing nothing right now. I'm sitting on my Dad's couch and have been pretty much all day. My social life is non existent and I'm about as rested as I'll ever be. I've become used to having such a rigidly planned out day. I always had to do something at camp, no matter what time of day it was. I miss that structure. I miss never being taskless. I function better when I have a list of things that I need to have accomplished by the end of the day. The camp atmosphere is perfect for me. I was better focused while I was there. Now all I'm doing is watching TV and wasting my life on Facebook. I've become a slave again. Help?!

Ok, enough drowning in sorrows. There is some positive news to report. Daniel, Dillon, and Aaron came in to visit/watch Switchfoot yesterday! It so good to see them! Even if it was for only like nine hours. I've missed them so much. And what better way to reunite than under the Texas night sky jamming to a very very good band? I can think of nothing better. And good times were had by all. Aaron had to be back to study Physics (yeah..I know) so they left 3:30 AM. It was a crazy night, but it was a lot of fun. Only nine more days til I get to see them. I'm stoked.

Well that's all for now. More later

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Donald Millerland

Hello all!

It has been over half a year since I last wrote on here. That is sad. I'm going to try to change that. Keep everyone updated on life.

So I spent my summer 30 minutes from Portland, Oregon at a place called Trout Creek Bible Camp. God blessed me in tremendous ways while I was there.

I experienced some incredible anxiety before I got there. I was worried about everything from getting stranded in an airport to wondering if I would make any friends. But luckily God really calmed me down as I was leaving Amarillo for Las Vegas.

I spent my first night in a hotel far from anything remotely close to being called Portland-esque. All the cool stuff was very far away. So I watched TV and desperately tried to get a hold of Anna Pruitt, as she was my ride to camp the next day. I might have been freaking out a little bit. Haha!

But on June 6th, 2009 I arrived at Trout Creek Bible Camp...and immediately felt like the new guy. Everybody that was there was hugging each other and so glad to see each other, and I stood there like an idiot. I was so nervous and felt completely out of place. Anna knew some of the people there, but that didn't help me out too much. Luckily I had a great Counselor Dean in the form of Fidgit. He was so incredibly kind and checked up on me throughout staff training week to make sure that I was doing alright. I will be forever grateful to him for that.

I made a few friends during that week. I really got to know a guy named Crash. We bonded over our love for Thrice/Dustin Kensrue. He also helped me out a lot during that week. I clung to him so much, and he didn't seem to mind. I also really got to know one of the CIT's (Counselor in Training), Bam Bam. It was his first year so we had that in common. He became one of my closest friends out in Oregon. We even got to do Adventure Club together, which was fun. Anna was in that as well.

But that week we learned everything from leading campers to Christ to dealing with bed wetters and home sickness. It was a whirlwind week and before I knew it I was counseling. And counseling has been quite the adventure. I've always had periods in my life where I feel like I'm good with kids, and other times I feel like no kid will ever like me because I tend to appear intimidating to them. So it was good to have a summer where I was working with kids basically 24/7. And luckily, I was shown that, hey, I am good with kids after all! It was nice to have that cleared up and it really excites me for apartment ministry at OBU in the Fall.

Like I said, hanging out with kids and showing them the love of Christ was an absolute blast. I had really good guys for the most part. I had eight groups of kids throughout the summer and they all taught me something new. I can honestly say that. My only challenging camper was named Zak and he cussed, fought, disobeyed, and was disrespectful to everyone. He was the one that was hard to love throughout the week. I would catch myself sometimes being intentionally rude back to him, and would have to take a moment, collect myself, and correct that attitude. But it was hard. I don't do well with disrespectful kids. But most of my guys weren't like that at all. They were kind, open-hearted, and obedient which I really appreciated. I got to really love on them and share God's Word with them. It was an absolute blast!

The last two weeks that I was there were rough. For a couple of reasons. One, I was really starting to realize that my time at camp was coming to an end, and that was rough. I was and wasn't ready to leave all at the same time. It was hard to leave my friends there (yes I finally did make some very good ones). You just get so used to seeing these people everyday, and it's weird when that is taken away. And secondly, Satan really began to attack us. There was an intense heat wave that struck the Portland area the second to last week that I was there. Temperatures got up into the triple digits. And Oregonians don't know how to handle heat. Most of them don't have air conditioning in their houses because it normally doesn't get that hot. So the kids that came that week didn't really know the importance of keeping yourself hydrated. So we lost about 30 kids that week. Then as the weekend approached, a stomach bug came through and that lasted all the way up until my last days at camp. We had campers and staff go home all week.

Although it was hard to deal with that, it was also an encouragement because it just means that Satan is very scared of the work that we were doing. He was trying to throw everything he could at us. And we still had about 30 kids come to know Jesus that week, which was awesome!

And then, three days ago, I had to say goodbye. My friends Tonka, Spork, Geronimo, and Scooby dropped me off at the airport and I headed back to Texas. It was a really tough goodbye. I was ready to see my family for sure, but I didn't want to leave them. They've all been so encouraging to me this summer, and helped push and grow my faith. It's been wonderful. The only thing that kept me from spiraling into a deep depression was knowing that I will more than likely get to see them in December. I am so stoked for that!

But anyways, that was a brief summary of my summer in Oregon. If you made it this far then you are a true hero. I hope you've all had summers full of friends, fun, and growth!